Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in drowned_geisha's LiveJournal:

Sunday, January 15th, 2006
12:56 am	in been back in london and felt like i never left, which i guess is a good thing. i think this term is gonna b hella more productive. i feel loads more driven... i spent the other day completely confused about what i was gonna do, but while i was abling through the wilderness of cyber space, i found so much amazing music graphics, and i totally got the envy. i know trent reznor gonna come knocking on my door to ask me design the next NIN album cover or direct their next music video, so i have to get my head outta my ass and do some work! the ideas are all there in my head, i just have to DO IT!!! i waste so much time doing diddly swatt, and it's rediculous. so i have traded my "outness" habbit for a new and improved in and book/video habbit. i went to magma today and bought a shite loads of beautiful books and yesterday i bought loads of dvd's which r just amazing, and if other dickheads can do it and live off the work, then so can i, so i will. so thats it, even if i wanted to, i can't do anything now anyway given the MASSIVE dent i just put in my funds, so i'm hibernating for an indefinate period, surrounded by my beautiful things and being productive, it feels nice to have a project thought. when i was on the bus back from town, dave text me. it would sem that the 4 years of torture he inflicted on me while we were going out was not sufficient, and he feels the need to continue indefinately... marvelous. it's bizarre how some1 who became completely the other half of me now feels like some sort of absess that i have to cutt out, but keeps growing back. we move away from each other and then get thrown back and there's this haze of chaos that we sit iin a fester. it doesn't make sence that he can have a new girlfriend and move to austria with her and still blame all the shit in his head on me... he's made his bed and he has to lie in it. he doesn't want me in his life, but he does, and he doesn't want me with any1 else, but he doesn't want me with him... i can't imagine anything worse than being back where is was with him, but nothing else seems to b familiar enough to b right either? i guess we're as bad as each other and that's the problem? he told me he wasn't marrything the creature and that it was some sort of sick rumour, but he tied that up with a bitter ribbon of 'how can i move on when ur still there"? i live in a totally different city, how much more can i do to get out of his life? i kinda quashed the sick feeling thats been taunting me for the past few weeks since i heard they were getting married, but it's still left me in this wierd haze of guilt for the way i treated him the last few months we were together and the few months b4 i went travelling. i thought that if i wished him luck with everything then that would b it, and i did feel better, untill he fuckin replied. hmmmm... Current Mood: determined Current Music: NIN (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 14th, 2005
9:26 pm	vivienne westwood ritualistic tourture y did i do it again!!! i went shopping AGAIN in fucking central london... it was horrible, again!!! shocking! but i submitted all my work so atleast thats all outta the way... and rewarded myself with a dirty visit to vivienne westwood! oh it was good... but now i want everything. hmmm... tourture. sleep. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: sparta (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 11th, 2005
3:54 pm	my hair by far my most POINTLESS entry of all time EVER... but y is my hair crunchy? i just washed it and put all the shit on it that it takes to make it look acceptable... but now it's dryed itself, it'a all crunchy? and i can't stop crunching it!!! y is that? i know when i straighten it and put more chemicals on it it will b nice and big and not crunchy, so y is it crunchy now? i don't understand?! and y r my eyelids so smooth? i wear FAR too much make up all the time, so y r they so smooth? ewww jay just flemmed in the bin... now i feel sick... i fucking hate boys... ur all gross. seriously. AND just to make today even more confusing... i had 1 pear left ok, and i was REALLY looking forward to it because it was TOTALLY perfectly ripe and good... and 1 on the 2 bastardos that i live with has absconded with the damn thing!!! so now i want it even more than i already did... not happy. but hilary is coming to cook me specail caiti friendly food for my dinner, so i'm quite happy and i'm gonna listen coheed and cambria and marvel at the astonishing pitch of his voice and wonder about y it is so oddly pleasing? WHO CAN SAY?! Current Mood: confused Current Music: coheed and cambria (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 10th, 2005
6:31 pm	horse meat disco whats the horse meat disco? if any 1 of my millions of friends on lj knows, plase let me know, because i'm meant to b going tomoro and i have no clue what it is. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
6:21 pm	christmas shopping y the fuck r people so agressive at christmas!!! shopping in general is meant to b a nice experience, surely therefore at christams it should b an even nicer experience? but no, london has managed to make it into some sort of sick and dirty extreme sport! it's definately gonna b in the winter olympics next year! it was horrendous! and fuckin £50 for a chocolat ballet shoe? stick it up ur fickin ass liberty. (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 1st, 2005
11:42 pm	weekkkk alright... i'm doing it missy!!! horrible week, it started so well too!!! i got loads of birthday vivienne westwood, which made me really happy, and then i saw edi, who is beautiful and so cute... and then my grandad died... so instead of spending 3 days in liverpoola dn then going back to london and then coming back to liverpool all ready for the fun of the 21st... i had to go to ireland with NO clothes or anything and get everythin ready for the funeral. hmmmmm. happy 21st!!!! shitty. hmmm. it wasn't all bad i guess, i got to c loads of people, and i was the funeral entertainment, btween falling down a hole in the cemetry, mounting a giant lion and getting so drunk i totally blacked out and walked back down to the party half naked... very good. i have high hopes for the rest of the week though, things have GOt to get better. getting my new tattoo tomoro, and then hilarey is arriving, and then the weekend of drunken fun begins, and any1 who gets in the way of the fun will suffer! party central... and i have to buy new clothes to wear coz i have nothing in liverpool to wear, so i get to shop and drink, it's all good! on ward Current Mood: cold Current Music: smashing pumpkins? (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 13th, 2005
12:46 pm	cold woyyyk up so early! and the cold, y the cold!!!??? need to do work, but the vaults run dry... y!!!! hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm need something amazing to happen to give me idea juice. it's so cold. i love the winter. i love the wrapping up. i love watching the storms from the warm... and USUALLY i love the flood of winter work ideas, but apparently 2005 aint so hot for that, DAMNIT!!! right, i'm on a mission for vault milk. (Comment on this)